faith.

quite a while since the last time I wrote a text post.

Hi….

Haha I think I’ve changed.

I mean, I change every single day, but still.

I really think I’ve been changing.

Maybe this kind of thinking actually means that I haven’t changed haha….

I feel like I have so much more to experience than I had previously imagined.

Does that make sense?

I just… I feel like I’ve learned that there’s just so much out there.  Seriously, though the world often seems so tiny, it’s actually unbelievably vast.  There are so many people who have no idea about me.  There are so many people that I have no idea about.

Isn’t it amazing?  I just think it’s so amazing.

I mean, I live such a sheltered life.  I don’t know much about hardship and I feel so uncomfortable hearing about it.  I hate how it sounds like I’m showing off.  I don’t mean to come off like that.  I just…. It was really only recently that I realized how many things I have yet to do/people I have yet to meet.  Like seriously, I feel so free.

I have such conflicting feelings about being alone.

I’m alone often.

I go back and forth about the way I feel about being alone.

I guess I already said that when I said that I have conflicting feelings about it…..

Lol…. It’s like…. When I’m happy being alone I think it’s good.  When I’m happy being with people I think it’s good.  When I’m happy being alone I think it’s better than being with people.  When I’m happy being with people I think it’s better than being alone.

Does that make sense?

I always go through the phase of just being sick of everything and wanting to retreat from everyone/everything at the end of the school year.

I’m so bad with relationships lol.  Everything is so ephemeral with me.

Maybe that’s better.  Maybe that’s worse.  Meh, who knows, who cares.

I hate when people try to predict the future.

I mean, I like horoscopes.

But when people/organizations/schools/anything freaks out, predicting some kind of outcome because of something.

Lol I don’t even think that makes sense.

If you don’t get what I’m talking about…. It’s okay.

Lol dude I’m happy with myself.

I really don’t need  to do anything.

But I SHOULD get back into running.  I’ve taken a long break from that.

Hm…. I like myself.